So many stories ...

There are so many stories untold in people`s hearts. Things that they notice. Lessons they learn. Pain that they go through.

Will others ever see it? Will they ever get to know your life conclusions?

Do they have to? Do they need it? The question arises whether they want it.

I think they do. They do want to know your story. Story of compassion, faithfulness and forgiveness, love and hatred, betrayal and joy. At least because they are curious. They are curious about everything, they are curious about each other`s lives.

Living in the world you touch the hearts of your neighbours. So someone can tell a story about you. About your smile that brought light into darkness, about your habits that make others change, about your faults that made them laugh. Don`t hide. You`ve got a lot to say. There are oceans deep inside you. There is life in your childhood memories. Memories that only you can tell.

Every single thing matters. Because it`s all you.

Let these stories become ballades, fairy-tales…whatever. Just tell them. Don`t be shy.  

 

Don't Sell Yourself Cheap!

Everyone of us has his own price. I don’t mean the price of a personality, but the price of relationship. Everyone of us has to pay the price to have this or that relationship. The price is always different: acceptance, respect, constancy, loyalty, obedience, freedom, the right for a mistake, respect.

Last year there was a special day: 11/11/11. It happens once in a hundred years. Number 11 means revelation, I didn’t know it, but that day in the morning God gave me a very encouraging revelation, which helps until this day.

At that period I was at the conference in Cherkassy and in the first day there the Holy Spirit drew my attention to the fans that stood on the stage. I looked at them and thought that they were really very beautiful, I definitely liked them.

Next morning I thought about relationships between people and God reminded me about the fans. At first I didn’t understand, but He continued to speak.

Communism in Church

A friend of mine told me about her dream, which she had last week. The dream was about communists who took rower over the country and one of them came to her with a gun and insisted on her saying that she doesn’t believe in Jesus. She said that it was very scary, because they were everywhere, but she still didn’t say that.

When she told me her dream I understood it was not a simple one, it has something in it and I thought about it. We’ll have elections soon in our country and I thought that we should pray for the communists not take power over our country. But when I started to pray I understood that it was not what God wanted to show in this dream. I put the dream aside but couldn’t forget about it.

Conversation with the Husband

“Who is God?”

Some ask this question once in a lifetime, some every day. The question, that makes us think who is God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit. God has many sides: Love, Savior, Teacher, Messiah, God of Forgiveness, and God of Healing.  He’s strict and just. At this moment of my life God opens to me as God the Father. He gives me His anointing, His love, His style of life. As the physical father God cares of me every second. He loves me no matter what! I love Him very much and desire His presence. Every time when He comes He’s different, because He knows my heart and what I need most of all at special period of time. He teaches me to love others. To look at people through His love.

A Long Story

I don’t know what to begin with. It’s funny for me not to know what to begin with. Yes, impossible is possible. But there really is a question: how to gather everything mixed with thoughts, heart and spirit. One time you want to say so many things but can’t find appropriate words and the best way to tell everything is to be quiet. But not this time! That’s why I start.

Part 1 Spiritual Invalid

“It’s not a wound, but trauma”, answered God my question why my wound can not be healed. I started to cry because immediately Holy Spirit reminded me about the story when God injured Jacob’s thigh and Jacob was crippled for the rest of his life. Applying this story to myself I understood that God is not going to heal me because my wound is not a wound but a trauma with which I’ll have to live for the rest of my life. But God would not be God if He hadn’t given me hope.

Rejection

I want to share my testimony that I received this spring about where the spirit of rejection lives and how it works. Of course, you may not believe me, because this is my personal revelation that Jesus told me. In the Bible, you will not find a Scripture which speaks directly about the spirit of rejection, but is the Bible the only word of God? After all, God speaks to us in many ways, and John wrote that all the books in the world will not be enough to write about what Jesus did and said. That’s why I do not hesitate, when I can not exactly find in the Bible what Jesus said to me, but when I ask Him to confirm what I was said or what I saw, then He shows me similar moments of Scripture.

Here's what I found out about this spirit. If you are not an exception, you have heard that you are a rejected person. But last spring God spoke to me, and it changed my thinking.

God Does not Like Photoshop

"God does not like Photoshop» - the phrase I heard recently. My friend said this after praying for a girl. And this girl started making excuses that the photo she had in facebook was her real, she just added some effects. To this my friend wisely smiled and said she did not mean it. I winked at her and realized what she meant, but I already went over the photos on my website in my mind.

Now, 3 months after the incident, I am so delighted to write this that I realized what my friend said, and even got through this!

False Prophesy

Last fall it was the first time in my life when I prophesied. It is ridiculous to admit, but I went to the church for 11 years and never prophesied. And for me too there were no   big prophesies, perhaps people prophesied to me two or three times in 11 years. I didn’t meet prophesies for many times in my life.

And after one man prophesied to me I realized that I would never want anyone to prophesy to me and would never prophesy to anyone. That prophecy brought a lot of pain in my life, because it was a false prophecy, and I closed my heart completely.

Good or Bad?

Since childhood our parents teach us what is good and what is bad - and that's good! One thing is when we do not know what is good and what is evil and they give us in the ground. But it is quite another thing when we, who have reached the age of maturity, keep sharing everything around us to the "good or bad". Separation is absorbed into our thinking so much that we have lost unity.

I think that one of the greatest sorrows is that man is divided within himself. We constantly divide ourselves into good or bad, and because of this it is so difficult for us to live in harmony. What do you think when Jesus says to you, "You are the light of the world" or "You are the salt of the earth"? My first reaction is: I can not be the light and the salt, I'm not so good. But the secret is that He does not ask me to be salt and light, He says that it is the fact.

Mistakes of the Past

A few months ago I looked into the eyes of Jesus and noticed something that I had never seen before. I never noticed where He looks. I looked into His eyes and He looked into mine. Previously, I paid attention to where I look, and now I'm looking into the eyes that look at me. I've never seen such a look, it completely captured me, all of me and I was very scared. It was scary how close and focused was His look. I would continue to look at Him, but I did not want Him to look at me like He did.

I knew that then something would happen and I was right. He told me the following: "As long as we do not deal with your past, we will not go anywhere." Now I understand why I was so scared and embarrassed, Jesus was really going to get me back into the past. Oh, how I did not want that! Probably, there is no greater punishment than put the old skeletons in the closet outside. I certainly know I'm not perfect and a lot of things are done wrong, but one thing is to know and another thing to realize. I was really scared to go back.

Oh, how wrong I was! It was a way not backward, but forward. I expected to fall, but I took off!

Obsessed!

One day I was called a freak. I just needed help and shared with certain people about my relationship with the Lord. I told that it's difficult for me when I do not understand God. I opened up my secret relationship with the Lord, and smart people  listen to it and decided to tell me the truth. True, in their opinion, was the fact that "there is a passion for God, and there is an obsession." Well, since I felt really bad because I could not hear His voice and understand Him, they thought I was possessed. They  told me to  relax and not to try  to understand the mind of God because it is impossible. But  I can not agree with them,  it is not true! I can understand the mind of God because I have the mind of Christ. I'm not afraid to let Christ into my brain, so that He was there to put things in order.

At first, I was very hurt because I was used to hearing this word in a negative light. Usually this word is used in combination with a demonic force, and few people would be delighted if you would call them obsessed. No matter in what way  those people were talking about me  I still had negative reaction.

Feedback

Agree that many things in our lives we do with the expectation of the reaction to our action. It starts from early childhood. When children break their mother's favorite vase, they know in advance her reaction to it. When in school, we do not do the home task, we know that we will have the bad mark . And so it continues throughout our lives.

But the response is not always as we expect. So when we first encounter with such a situation, in the future we fear unpredictable response. When a little girl says a boy about her feelings, she has no idea that they may be rejected. But with this it all begins.