Communism in Church

A friend of mine told me about her dream, which she had last week. The dream was about communists who took rower over the country and one of them came to her with a gun and insisted on her saying that she doesn’t believe in Jesus. She said that it was very scary, because they were everywhere, but she still didn’t say that.

When she told me her dream I understood it was not a simple one, it has something in it and I thought about it. We’ll have elections soon in our country and I thought that we should pray for the communists not take power over our country. But when I started to pray I understood that it was not what God wanted to show in this dream. I put the dream aside but couldn’t forget about it.

Yesterday my friend said that she had a dream about communists again and they had much power. Again I felt like a lamp was lit in me saying: “Attention!” That night there was a gathering for the leaders in church. There was nothing bad there, pastor just spoke about his calling, about where God leads him and everyone was fine, except me. I felt terribly bad at the service, I listened to what he was saying and understood that everything was ok, but I felt like a heavy cloud was down on us and in the spirit I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I was in the state like I’m afraid of small rooms and I was put in the smallest one where the walls like went on me – disastrous feeling. I asked how my friend felt, she felt well, but I couldn’t sit there. I asked Jesus what was with me and the Holy Spirit reminded me of my trauma. I understood the religious spirit was already there. But it didn’t came like I saw it before, then it was a spirit of communism.

I don’t know whether this is one and the same spirit or whether they’re different, but it was very powerful. If you lived under communist reign you’d better understand what I mean. I was born in the era of USSR, but I don’t remember the structure of this system. I know about it only from the stories of my relatives. And what they told me completely coincides with what I saw yesterday on the service.

I saw how this spirit makes people do what they don’t want to do. Yesterday one of the leaders of the church was made to go out from the church and 7 people made the decision for him. They didn’t want to let him go, but the spirit was so strong that they obeyed to it. It was painful to watch how grown-up, mature and clever people made excuses in front of others for what they didn’t want to do, but did. They made excuses in front of themselves, actually! I saw how the spirit of communism controlled the people and they couldn’t do anything because didn’t see it.

Also I noticed that this spirit doesn’t let other people have another opinion. Mom told me that in communist countries you have to think what the main party thinks. If you have another opinion you’re taken into prison and nobody’s allowed to talk to you. It was humiliating not to share the views of your party. Yesterday on the service people told that they were like detectives and decided whether the leader was guilty or not. His guilt lies in the fact, that he doesn’t share the opinion of the church! I don’t know this person so good, but the thing is in the relationships between people in general. What does it mean they were detectives? I remember in Soviet times all the conversations were heard. There was even a phrase for that: the walls have ears. I remember one person told that once in the company of his close friends he told an anecdote about the party. Next day he was taken to jail and asked for hundred times what did he think about the party. I’m sorry for the comparison, but what I saw yesterday was really a trial!

I saw many horrible things yesterday and it was very painful but there is no sense it telling all of them because the root is not in the situation itself or in the behavior of the people, but in the communist spirit, which lives in the church and rules over children of God! I don’t know what should happen for the church to wake up and stop believing and living in a lie.

Things that Jesus told me were very powerful. Again I felt His great love to the people! He continues to love His bride and believes that she can do everything. Believe me, He loves her very much! He helped me not to go away, not to start shout, because I felt much pain when I saw that there was no Jesus in the situation. But every time He calmed me down, encouraged and gave motivation. I wonder how He can love so much when the bad sides of a person are opened in front of others instead of showing love to the one Jesus died for, the one who God created for Himself. The saddest thing is that people, for whom He also died, do this. I can’t even imagine how the Father cries when his children kill each other not knowing that they are under power of the one, who himself  is a thief and murderer.

It is a sad story but when I see how God covers me and doesn’t let me to leave the church I understand that soon everything changes and He will bring the Truth to His Bride! But now one has to have patience, love and faith!