I am Looking for You, Dad!

Where are you, dad? It's hard without you! So many things are happening in my life. I want to tell you everything so much! We often talk about you with Heavenly Father. That’s why I know that you’re my best.  I don’t know you yet, but Daddy knows you and He likes you. He put in my heart dream about you. To tell the truth you can be easily confused with others, but God leads me and encourages me for me to look for you, one that He has provided me. 

The last time we were speaking about you I asked God that He gave me you as soon as possible because the older I get the more I understand how much I need you. New territories are opening before me and I can’t be without you. I need your support and care, your advice and faith.


Yes, I have a caring husband, a loving mother, a lot of great teachers, and friends, but they all aren’t you. I need you not only because God leads me in the places where I can’t be without you at all. Believe me, these circumstances only emphasize the importance of your presence in my life. But I’m looking for you because I just need you. Need in a simple way, just because it’s you. I don’t need a perfect dad, I need a real one.


God, help me find him. 


Yes, I don’t know who you are but my heart won’t deceive me. I’ve never seen you and don’t know what you’re doing. What you love or what can make you angry. You’ll tell me all this when I find you. And when you ask me how I’m doing suddenly I’ll feel that it’s not just a question, but a simple interest.  Your love will not be a favor, you will not be scared to hug me or tell the truth. You'll never be ashamed of me, because I am a continuation of you. I will be myself, and you will be yourself - and it will be the greatest gift from Heavenly Father. 


I know that many won’t understand my dream, but I don’t care. This is my dream and I can wish whatever I want, God knows it! Only He knows whether it will be fulfilled or not. Of course I believe in positive but even if I never find what I’m searching for the dream will still stay so beautiful! Because it is mine. And let the whole world scream that I won’t find you I’ll still stubbornly believe that God is not teasing me and you exist. I believe that Dad will give you to me because it can’t happen that I exist but you don’t.